Friday, 27 December 2024

Gigs - 2024

I don't normally blog a list of gigs I've attended, but as this amounted to 25 this year (more than I've ever done in a single year, even though I appreciate for many people that would be a small sum) I thought I'd create a space here for some photo sharing. I don't take many photos at gigs as I prefer to be in the moment, but early on I like to get my phone out and take at least one snap (as a reminder more than anything else). And I do mean snaps, there's no professionalism here! Anyway, no doubt this might be of interest to someone, somewhere, so here, listing the main act only unless there is a very significant other, are the gigs I attended in 2025 with accompanying pic.




10th February 2024

Sham 69

Norwich Waterfront



2nd March 2024

Echo & The Bunnymen 

Norwich UEA



20th March 2024

The Stranglers

Cambridge Corn Exchange


                                                                                                                                                                        27th March 2024

Goat Girl

Norwich Arts Centre



2nd May 2024

Nadine Shah

Heaven, London



13th May 2024

Theatre of Hate

Portland Arms, Cambridge



15th May 2024

Kacey Musgraves

Roundhouse, London



20th May 2024

Gary Numan

Norwich UEA



28th May 2024

Echobelly

Norwich Waterfront



23rd June 2024

Taylor Swift

Wembley Stadium



4th July 2024

Soccer Mommy

Norwich Arts Centre



29th August 2024

Baxter Dury

Norwich Waterfront



14th September 2024

Melt-Banana

Norwich Waterfront Studio



19th September 2024

Welly

Norwich Waterfront Studio



5th October 2024

Bedouin Soundclash

Mama Roux’s, Birmingham



16th October 2024

Maximo Park

Norwich Waterfront



31st October 2024

Sum 41

Wembley Arena



2nd November 2024

They Might Be Giants

Cambridge Junction



8th November 2024

Mercury Rev

Cambridge Junction



14th November 2024

Amyl & The Sniffers

London Roundhouse



15th November 2024

Alien Ant Farm

Norwich, Epic Studio



17th November 2024

Essential Logic

Islington Assembly, London



17th November 2024

Penetration

Islington Assembly, London


  

22nd November 2024

Nadine Shah

02 Forum, London



7th December 2024

Mattiel

Rich Mix, London



16th December 2024

The Fleshtones

Cambridge Corn Exchange



16th December 2024

The Damned

Cambridge Corn Exchange



The Best and Worst of 2024

Well, it's that time of the year when everyone is doing their 'best and worst' of' lists, so here is mine. I'm going to list the books and movies and records I read/watched/listened to in 2024 and then pick my favourites. This isn't restricted to what was new in 2024, but what I actually watched and read and heard - some of these items might be very old indeed.


Books:

I read the following in 2024:

James Cooper – Little Boy
Olga Ravn – The Employees
Steve Shaw (editor) – Ars Gratia Sanguis
Georges Simenon – Maigret’s First Case
Andrea Schulte-Peevers – Berlin 
Amanda Huggins – Signals
Yelena Moskovich – Virtuoso
Henri Pierre-Roche – Jules et Jim
Editor Eric J Guignard – Professor Charlatan Bardot’s Travel Anthology To The Most (Fictional) Haunted Buildings In The Weird, Wide World
Daniel Church – The Ravening
Georges Simenon – My Friend Maigret
Anna Kavan – Julia And The Bazooka
Hilary Neroni – Feminist Film Theory and Cléo from 5 to 7
Georges Simenon – Maigret at the Coroner’s
Jason E Rolfe – Invisible Influences
Massimo Carlotto – The Goodbye Kiss
Brian Howell – The Man Who Loved Kuras
Georges Simenon – Maigret and the Old Lady
Vladimir Nabokov – The Enchanter
David Bevan – The Bull
Pedro Almodovar – The Patty Diphusa Stories
R M Cartmel – The White House, Holyhead
Witold Gombrowicz – Pornografia 
Jeff Noon and Steve Beard – Ludluda
Georges Simenon – Madame Maigret’s Friend
Chris Beckett – Daughter of Eden
Alistair Conwell – Circadian Web
George Simenon – Maigret’s Memoirs
Michael Paul Hogan – Chinese Bolero
Primo Levi – If This Is A Man
David Swann – Season of Bright Sorrow
Alexander Zelenyi – A Test Tube Family
Jean-Baptiste Del Amo – Animalia
Megan Taylor – Waiting For The Rat
Georges Simenon – Maigret at Picratt’s
Jon Fosse – Aliss at the Fire
Nicholas Royle – Shadow Lines 
Christopher Fowler – Plastic
Georges Simenon – Maigret Takes A Room
Pete Shelley – Ever Fallen In Love
Eugen Bacon & Milton Davis – Hadithi & The State of Black Speculative Fiction
Robert Stone – Spoon
Neil Williamson – Charlie Says
Robert Stone – Hole
Georges Simenon – Maigret And The Tall Woman
Giselle Leeb – The Little Ghost
Ian Critchley – Removals
Alison Moore – The Junction
Paul Auster – Invisible 
Cliff McNish – Snowdrops
Charlotte Turnbull – Let’s Hang Out
Siri Hustveldt – The Blindfold
Raduan Nassar – A Cup Of Rage
Cynan Jones – Stock
M. John Harrison – Climbers 
Georges Simenon – Maigret, Longon and the Gangsters
Lonely Planet writers – Portugal 
Steve Shaw (editor) – Something Peculiar (Great British Horror #8)
Georges Simenon – Maigret’s Revolver
Philip K Dick – The World Jones Made
Georges Simenon – Maigret and the Man on the Bench
Kirsten Norrie – Dream of the Cactus Garden
E.L. Doctorow – Andrew’s Brain
Adam L G Nevill – Before You Sleep: Three Horrors
Ralph Robert Moore – Welcome To Me
Georges Simenon – Maigret Is Afraid
Su Tong – Raise The Red Lantern
Georges Simenon – Maigret’s Mistake
JJ Burnel – Strangler In The Light
Brian Aldiss – The Canopy of Time
Paul Auster – Auggie Wren's Christmas Story


That's worked out at 71 books this year, up one from last year's 70, so I'm happy with that. I should mention that I also proofread and copyedit and adding those novels into the mix would increase the number by about 15 books this year (those which were exceptional also making the above list).

Thankfully there weren't many books that I read this year that I absolutely hated, with most of the books attaining either three or four stars in my Goodreads round-up which is equivalent to 'I liked it' and above. Oddly, I found some shorter books more of a struggle to read, with the much praised "A Cup of Rage" by Raduan Nassar and "The Blindfold" by Siri Hustvedt failing to engage. Likewise "Pornografia" by Witold Gombrowicz (a superficially fast story which can only be read slow), also took ages to plough through. These were all a struggle for me.

Also, to my surprise, was Christopher Fowler's "Plastic", which I found totally unbelievable with regards to the actions of the main character - even within fantasy/horror there should be an internal logic to be adhered to, otherwise everything falls apart. Fowler's writing is normally quite tight, so I was disappointed by this. Fowler is very much a cinematic writer, and there were a couple of books linked to cinema that I read this year which also felt superficial. Spanish film director Pedro Almodovar's "The Patty Diphusa Stories" being no more than mildly entertaining and rather boring, and Henri Pierre-Roche's "Jules et Jim" (from which Francois Truffaut based his film) was frankly terrible, reading like an uninteresting selection of diary entries from someone who has had an interesting life but was unable to articulate it. And finally, being excited to read "The Goodbye Kiss" by Massimo Carlotto, I found this hard-hitting crime novel unexciting, ponderous and unrelentingly (unnecessarily) cruel. Not recommended.

I continued ploughing through George Simenon's Maigret novels, reading fourteen of those this year and enjoying all of them (and like last year, one more than the others). I'm more than halfway through that 75 book series and have to yet read one I haven't enjoyed. Some were only three stars, as were some other books which I'd still like to recommend. These include Anna Kavan's "Julia and the Bazooka" - a collection of stories which felt more one-note than the depth to be found in her longer work; "Season of Bright Sorrow" by David Swann (containing some tight and frequently poetic prose); the anthology, "Something Peculiar: Great British Horror 8" edited by Steve Shaw, which included some fantastic stories (Andrew Humphrey's "Hide and Seek" being a good example); and "Andrew's Brain" by E.L. Doctorow which - whilst not reaching the dizzying heights of much of his work - still had much to ponder over. Finally, "Raise The Red Lantern", by Su Tong contains the excellent title novella (made into a film by Zhang Yimou of course), but the other two novellas were quite bland.

Whilst some of the 3 star books were edging 4, there were a large number of 4 star reads this year. These included "Little Boy" by James Cooper (a great - and believable - coming of age story); "The Employees" by Olga Ravn (a workplace novel set on a generation ship); "Virtuoso" by Yelena Moskovich (I loved "The Nastashas" which I read last year, and this is equally well-written); Brian Howell's collection, "The Man Who Loved Kuras" (although I read this prior to publication, re-reading it caused equal pleasure); "Ludluda" by Jeff Noon and Steve Beard (the second in a series of which "Gogmagog" was the first and in which both gave me tremendous pleasure); the unrelenting horror novel, "The Ravening", by Daniel Church; the short novel, "The Enchanter", by Vladimir Nabokov (whenever I read Nabokov I wonder why I bother reading anyone else); "Daughter of Eden" by Chris Beckett (a very satisfying conclusion to his Dark Eden trilogy - Beckett remains one of my favourite moden SF writers); "If This Is A Man" by Primo Levi (who has the capacity of rendering atrocities so matter-of-factly but in beautiful prose); "Animalia" by Jean-Baptiste Del Amo (who, like Levi, can work with the mundane and elevate it with the highest prose); "Charlie Says" by Neil Williamson (in a departure from Neil's regular style, this 'horror' novella wears it's 1970's influences well); and "Before You Sleep" (a collection of three horror stories from Adam L.G. Nevill which genuinely had me looking into the dark corners of my room.

Amongst short stories, I read 12 Nightjar chapbooks this year, with the best being those by David Bevan ("The Bull"), Giselle Leeb ("The Little Ghost"), Ian Critchley ("Removals"), Alison Moore ("The Junction") and Cliff McNish ("Snowdrops"). And onto non-fiction, I greatly enjoyed the music biographies "Love Bites" (Pete Shelley of Buzzcocks) and "Strangler In The Light" (by JJ Burnel of The Stranglers), and also "Shadow Lines: Searching For The Book Beyond The Shelf" by Nicholas Royle about his passion for book collecting. And you can add to this section "Welcome To Me" by writer, Ralph Robert Moore, which - whilst not wholly non-fiction - contains an excellent smorgasbord of his writings and an insight into his methods.

Ultimately, however, as usual I default to Goodreads for those few books which I rated 5/5 during the year, and on this occasion there were only three which makes my final selection much easier. So, without further ado, here's my third place and then my top two favourite reads of 2024:



In reverse order:

"Maigret's Mistake" by Georges Simenon




One of the strongest in the Maigret series of novels, the plot and how it unravels is sublime. Investigating the death of a kept woman, Maigret repeatedly delays interviewing the prime suspect until the last moment, until he inevitably is invited to do so and the complexities of the circumstances around the death are fully revealed. The interactions between the mostly-female cast and the central figure of the male surgeon are well-woven and believable, with some great insights into the human condition and the reasons for attraction. All of Simenon's Maigret novels have been good, but this one is exquisite and deservedly gets third place this year.


"Climbers" by M. John Harrison




I deliberated whether to give this 4 or 5 stars. In many ways, there's little more here than anecdotal material of climbers whose lives are no more nor less than the sum total of the summit, yet the writing is so glittery perfect that it seems churlish to drop a star due to the absence of plot. I found myself re-reading sections to enjoy the prose which is absolutely spot on. Neither a page turner nor something I was reluctant to pick up each evening, "Climbers" embedded itself in my psyche and I realised whilst I was reading that it would all be about the end as to how much I could look back on and enjoy what came before it. Sort of looking back at where you've come from after a climb (not that I climb, but I do ramble, as you can tell from this review). Anyhow, the ending is perfect. Therefore, five stars. 

And the winner is:

"Invisible" by Paul Auster




For a work of meta-fiction to be a page turner is a rare thing but "Invisible" is exactly that. An engaging book full of believable characters who may or may not be unreliable narrators and with truth tantalisingly just out of reach, this is a mirror held up to real life in the sense that we all reinvent ourselves (willingly or not) in each new interaction. I haven't read Auster for a while and have enjoyed most of his other work, so picked this up a little anxiously. I needn't have been concerned. Auster is a master of getting it right when it comes to what I want to read. I'm glad I still have more of his work unexplored. Loved it.


Movies:

I watched the following in 2024:

Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937, various directors)
Zombi Child (2019, Bertrand Bonello)
The Stranger (2022, Thomas M. Wright)
Leave the World Behind (2023, Sam Esmail)
Hell or High Water (2016, David Mackenzie)
Hairspray (1988, John Waters)
Saltburn (2023, Emerald Fennell)
The Seven Year Itch (1955, Billy Wilder)
How to Have Sex (2023, Molly Manning Walker)
Pinocchio (1940, various directors)
Into the Deep (2020, Emma Sullivan)
The Loveless (1981, Kathryn Bigelow and Monty Montgomery)
The Silence of the Lambs (1991, Jonathan Demme)
Into the Inferno (2016, Werner Herzog)
Lover for a Day (2017, Philippe Garrel)
Relic (2020, Natalie Erika James)
The Draughtsman's Contract (1982, Peter Greenaway)
La Jetée (1962, Chris Marker)
The Umbrellas of Cherbourg (1964, Jacques Demy)
Invasion of the Body Snatchers (1978, Philip Kaufman)
Le Coup du Berger (1956, Jacques Rivette)
Women Reply: Our Bodies, Our Sex (short film, 1975, Agnes Varda)
La Antena (2007, Esteban Sapir)
Le Chant du Loup (2019, Antonin Baudry)
Layer Cake (2004, Matthew Vaughn)
Cléo from 5 to 7 (1962, Agnès Varda)
Sherlock Jr. (1924, Buster Keaton)
Enys Men (2022, Mark Jenkin)
Pickpocket (1959, Robert Bresson)
Daisies (Czech: Sedmikrásky, 1966, Věra Chytilová)
Poor Things (2023, Yorgos Lanthimos)
Dune: Part Two (2024, Denis Villeneuve)
Calvaire (2004, Fabrice Du Welz)
Haute Tension (2003, Alexandre Aja)
The Ledge (2022, Howard J. Ford)
Death Race 2000 (1975, Paul Bartel)
Boiling Point (1990, Takeshi Kitano)
Anatomy of a Fall (2023, Justine Triet)
Priscilla (2023, Sofia Coppola)
The Color of Pomegranates (1969, Sergei Parajanov)
Man with a Movie Camera (1929, Dziga Vertov)
Under Paris (Xavier Gens, 2024)
Bicycle Thieves (aka The Bicycle Thief, 1948, Vittorio De Sica)
The Boondock Saints (1999, Troy Duffy)
The Zone of Interest (2023, Jonathan Glazer)
The Dark (2018, Justin P. Lange)
The Dreamers (2003, Bernardo Bertolucci)
Remembering Gene Wilder (2023, Ron Frank)
Abuse of Weakness (French: Abus de faiblesse, 2013, Catherine Breillat)
The Killing (1956, Stanley Kubrick)
The Golden Glove (German: Der Goldene Handschuh, 2019, Fatih Akin)
The Cremator (Czech: Spalovač mrtvol, 1969, Juraj Herz)
Tokyo Story (1953, Yasujirō Ozu)
Rollerball (1975, Norman Jewison)
The Tunnel (2011, Carlo Ledesma)
Eyes Without a Face (1960, Georges Franju)
Bring Out The Fear (2021, Richard Waters)
Crimes of the Future (2022, David Cronenberg)
The Outwaters (2022, Robbie Banfitch)
The Little Mermaid (1989, John Musker and Ron Clements)
King of New York (1990, Abel Ferrara)
Un Chien Andalou (1929, Luis Buñuel)
Skywalkers: A Love Story (2024, Jeff Zimbalist)
The Last Man on Earth (1964, Ubaldo Ragona and Sidney Salkow)
Greta (2018, Neil Jordan)
The Forest (2016, Jason Zada)
Golem (1979, Piotr Szulkin)
Infested (2023, Sébastien Vaniček)
They Look Like People (2015,  Perry Blackshear)
Hell Hole (2024, John Adams & Toby Poser)
Speak No Evil (2022, Christian Tafdrup)
V/H/S (2012, Adam Wingard, David Bruckner, Ti West, Glenn McQuaid, Joe Swanberg, Radio Silence)
A Wounded Fawn (2022, Travis Stevens)
The Platform 2 (2024, Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia)
Four Unloved Women, Adrift On A Purposeless Sea, Experience the Ecstasy of Dissection (2023, David Cronenberg)
The Substance (2024, Coralie Fargeat)
Woman of the Hour (2023, Anna Kendrick)
Artic Void (2022, Darren Mann)
Starve Acre (2023, Daniel Kokotajlo)
The Cloverfield Paradox (2018, Julius Onah)
10 Rillington Place (1971, Richard Fleischer)
Police Story (1985, Jackie Chan)
Yannick (2023, Quentin Dupieux)
Ravenous (2017, Robin Aubert)
American Gangster (2007, Ridley Scott)
Late Night with the Devil (2023, Colin and Cameron Cairnes)
The Long Good Friday (1980, John Mackenzie)
Catch Me If You Can (2002, Steven Spielberg)
Adaptation (2002, Charlie Kaufman)

In 2023 I watched 109 movies and this year the list comes to 89. There's a good reason for this: Masterchef. We must have binge-watched almost ten seasons of it last year (including Professional Masterchef). I don't really know why, but there you go. I've gained one recipe from it. However, this is still quite a long list to narrow down to my top three, and unlike books I don't have a site equivalent to Goodreads with which to guide my memory. 

As usual, however, I'm discounting movies I've previously seen. So this takes out the always admirable "Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs" (1937, no introduction necessary); "Hairspray", the John Waters version, which I loved all over again; the absolutely glorious and ultimately heart-breaking "The Umbrellas of Cherbourg" (Jacques Demy); the not-quite-as-good-as-I-thought-it-was-oh-yes-really "Invasion of the Body Snatchers" (1978); the brilliantly inventive Buster Keaton film "Sherlock Jnr"; "Rollerball" (1975) which I realised I had conflated with "Slap Shot" and kept waiting for the twins to appear; the sublime "Eyes Without A Face" directed by Georges Franju which had lost none of its haunting power; another Disney animation, "The Little Mermaid", which is genuinely heart-in-mouth; "Un Chien Andalou" (natch); "Arctic Void" (directed by Darren Mann, for which I have written a passion piece which will be published next year); and finally the superlative "The Long Good Friday" which has one of the best endings in cinematic history.

Those movies which I found annoying or awful are easy to chronicle, and thankfully these were few and far between, however they included "Leave The World Behind" (directed by Sam Esmail), a passable apocalyptic film where a family battle increasingly unlikely CGI. It threw up some interesting ideas but failed to catch them; "Layer Cake" (Matthew Vaughan) which I thought might be in the excellent vein of "Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels", but was a misfired mess; Sofia Coppola's "Priscilla" which I really wanted to like, but was the kind of movie where it appeared that the director was unsure what she wanted it to be; "The Boondock Saints" directed by Troy Duffy, which must be up there amongst the worst films I have ever seen; "The Outwaters" (2022, Robbie Banfitch), following which I felt like severing my penis and disembowelling myself; "Hell Hole" (2024 - not to be confused with the excellent Polish film of the same name), which was a catalogue of shite; "The Platform 2" (not a patch on the original and utterly unnecessary); and "The Cloverfield Paradox" (the paradox being how a movie such as this could ever be made).

Whilst the films I actively loathed weren't that many, there were a large number of films that I felt relatively indifferent to, even though some of them were widely praised. Without further comment, these included "Saltburn", "The Zone of Interest", "The Substance", "Woman of the Hour", and "Starve Acre". What could be lumped in with those might be "Late Night With The Devil" (directed by Colin and Cameron Cairnes), however, despite the unnecessary final ten minutes which undermined much of the film, I did get a good nightmare out of it so it certainly got under my skin. Other horror films this year well worth a mention include "Relic" (directed by Natalie Erika James) which really got into the head of dementia; "Enys Men" (Mark Jenkins) - exactly the kind of film I want to see; "Death Race 2000" which was totally anarchic; "The Tunnel" (2011) which breathed real fear into the found footage format; Cronenberg's "Crimes of the Future" (2022) which I recall really liking but which I can actually no longer recall; "Infested" (director, Sébastien Vaniček), which reminded me of "Attack The Block" but with spiders (and I hate spiders but enjoyed this a lot); and "Speak No Evil" (director, Christian Tafdrup). a truly gripping psychological horror movie that moves inexorably to its inevitable conclusion which is no less devastating because of it.

Other than the above which are all recommended, there were only a few more films that really got under my skin, and here are those recommendations: "The Seven Year Itch" (genuinely delightful); "The Loveless" (Kathryn Bigelow's and Monty Montgomery's off-hand classic); "In The Inferno", a compelling volcanic documentary from Werner Herzog; "Lover For A Day", great French cinema directed by Philippe Garrel whose films are always watchable; Peter Greenaway's totally oddball "The Draftsman's Contract"; the almost equally bizarre fable "La Antena" directed by Esteban Sapir; Dziga Vertov's revolutionary "Man With A Movie Camera" (1929); "Abuse of Weakness" (a film based on a true story with a brilliant central performance by the ever reliable Isabelle Huppert; "The Killing" (Kubrick's early - genuine - classic); "The Golden Glove" (directed by Fatih Akin) based on a real serial killer case, unrelenting in it's voyeurism; and the madcap "Daisies" (1966, Věra Chytilová) which I adored. A couple more mentions: I finally got around to watching the classic "Tokyo Story" (1953) only to realise I had been confusing it with "Police Story" (1985, which I also watched this year), and was expecting some kind of black and white Japanese hardboiled cop movie. And also "Poor Things" by Yorgos Lanthimos, which at the beginning of the year I thought would easily make my top three, but which I can now barely recall.

Anyway, whilst as usual I get the feeling that another day might produce marginally different results (certainly over the number three spot - it could have been "Man With A Movie Camera"), today here are my top three movies that I saw for the first time in 2024.

Again, in reverse order:

"Calvaire" (2004) - Fabrice Du Welz




A great, weird horror film that plays like The League of Gentlemen but completely straight. It also includes what will likely be my third favourite dance sequence on film (others would include those in "Bande a Part", Laurel and Hardy's dance in "Way Out West", the long dance scene in Bela Tarr's "Satantango", and the dance to Sonic Youth's 'Kool Thing' in Hal Hartley's "Simple Men". And for the sheer exuberance of the dance here, the film appears in my third spot this year.


"Anatomy of a Fall" (2023) - Justine Triet





This is a compelling drama about two writers that I greatly enjoyed. My partner, Sophie, summed it up perfectly: "it's exactly how writers are and exactly those who aren't writers aren't". A compelling drama.

And the winner is...

"The Color of Pomegranates" (1969) - Sergei Parajanov




An incredible film of stunning tableau vivant images. Each frame perfectly evoking the poetic, everyday, and the surreal. A masterpiece without a doubt. Astonishing. Who needs CGI when you can do this? 



Records:

I listened to the following albums in 2024:

Hallan – The Noise of a Firing Gun
Blonde Redhead – 23
Taylor Swift – Evermore
Sabina Sciubba – Toujours
Aldous Harding – Party
Teen Jesus & The Jean Teasers – I Love You
Charlie Megira & The Hefker Girl – Charlie Megira & The Hefker Girl
Romy – Mid Air
Bjork – Vespertine
France Gall – Ten Songs For You
Ultravox – Rage In Eden
Sham 69 – That’s Life
Blonde Redhead – Misery Is A Butterfly
Kumiso – Kabuki Femme Fatale
The Fall – New Facts Emerge
The Roches – Another World
The Anti-Nowhere League – We Are…The League
Maximo Park – Nature Always Wins
Echo & The Bunnymen – Porcupine 
The Fall – Re-Mit
The Fall – Sub-Lingual Tablet
The Fall – Your Future Our Clutter
Blonde Redhead – Sit Down For Dinner
Carla Bruni – Comme si de rien n’etait 
Sheherazaad – Qasr
Nadine Shah – Filthy Underneath
Various artists – BIPPP French Synth-Wave (1979-1985)
Sabina Sciubba – Force Majeure 
Ramones – Ramones 
The Stranglers – La Folie
The Stranglers – Dark Matters
Kacey Musgraves – Deeper Well
Goat Girl – Goat Girl
Goat Girl – On All Fours
Lambrini Girls – You're Welcome
Butthole Surfers – piouhgd
Theatre of Hate – Westworld
Gary Numan – The Pleasure Principle
Ramones – Rocket To Russia
Knower – Knower Forever
Vampire Weekend – Only God Was Above Us
Nadine Shah – Fast Food
Paramore – This Is Why
Taylor Swift – The Tortured Poet’s Department
Taylor Swift – The Tortured Poet’s Department (bonus songs)
Tubeway Army – Replicas
Soccer Mommy – Sometimes, Forever
Snapped Ankles – The Forest Of Your Problems
Echobelly – Anarchy & Alchemy
Lee Hazlewood and Nancy Sinatra – Nancy & Lee Again
Le Tigre – Le Tigre
The Fall – This Nation's Saving Grace
Echobelly – On
Viagra Boys – Cave World
Butthole Surfers – Locust Abortion Technician
Young Marble Giants – Colossal Youth
Big Black – Songs About Fucking
Amyl and The Sniffers – Amyl and The Sniffers
Amyl and The Sniffers – Comfort To Me
Soccer Mommy – Color Theory
Sonic Youth – A Thousand Leaves
X-Ray Spex – Germfree Adolescents
Butthole Surfers – Rembrandt Pussyhorse
The Damned – Evil Spirits
Viagra Boys – Street Worms
Bent – Programmed to Love
Beak – >>
Mercury Rev – The Secret Migration
Penetration – Moving Targets
Los Bichos – Let The Festivities Begin
Nina Hagen – NunSexMonkRock 
Goat Girl – Below The Waste
Sonic Youth – NYC Ghosts & Flowers
Iggy Pop – Avenue B
The Stranglers – Rattus Norvegicus
Baxter Dury – I Thought I Was Better Than You
Nina Hagen – Fearless
Butthole Surfers – Hairway to Steven
The Cramps – A Date With Elvis
Dwarves – The Dwarves Are Young and Good Looking
Hard-Ons – Dickcheese
The Meanies – Come 'N' See
Habibi – Dreamachine
Blonde Redhead – La Mia Vita Violenta
Otoboke Beaver – Super Champon
Jane Weaver – Modern Kosmology
The Flaming Lips – Embryonic
Aldous Harding – Warm Chris
Belle & Sebastian – Tigermilk
Bloodhound Gang – Hooray For Boobies
PINS – Hot Slick
Paramore – Riot!
Taylor Swift – 1989
Hermanos Gutiérrez – Sonido Cósmico
Buzzcocks – Another Music In A Different Kitchen
Buzzcocks – Love Bites
Buzzcocks – A Different Kind Of Tension
Hugh Cornwell – Hooverdam
Bedouin Soundclash – Mass
The xx – I See You
The Stranglers – Black And White
Pete Shelley – Homosapien
The Cramps – …Off The Bone
Snapped Ankles – Stunning Luxury
Baxter Dury – The Night Chancers
Butthole Surfers – Electriclarryland
Sugarcubes – Here Today, Tomorrow Next Week!
Dry Cleaning – Stumpwork
Ian Dury – New Boots and Panties
Melt-Banana – 3+5
Melt-Banana – Fetch
The Residents – Mark Of The Mole
Annie Lennox – Diva
Mercury Rev – Born Horses
Lenny Kravitz – Let Love In
The Residents – Demons Dance Alone
Maximo Park – Stream of Life
Bedouin Soundclash – Sounding A Mosaic
Sum 41 – All Killer No Filler
They Might Be Giants – Flood
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds – Wild God
Sum 41 – Does This Look Infected?
Radiohead – Kid A
Television – Adventure
Fontaines DC – Romance
Sum 41 – Heaven :x: Hell
Cate Le Bon – Pompeii
Pylon – Gyrate
The Cramps – Smell of Female
Blondie – Blondie
Associates – Sulk
Modern Eon – Fiction Tales
They Might Be Giants – Book
The Residents – Dookietown
Amyl & The Sniffers – Cartoon Darkness
The Residents – Please Do Not Steal It!
Panic Shack – Baby Shack
Plasmatics – New Hope For The Wretched
Halsey – The Great Impersonator
The Cure – Songs Of A Lost World
Bjork – Post 
Alien Ant Farm – Anthology
Penetration – Coming Up For Air
Alien Ant Farm – ~mAntras~
Taylor Swift – Red
Blink-182 – Cheshire Cat
Warmduscher – Too Cold To Hold
Okotobe Beaver – Itekoma Hits
JJ Burnel – Euroman Cometh
Girl Scout – Headache (EP)
Throwing Muses – Sun Racket
Swans – Leaving Meaning
Gut Health – Stiletto
Big Joanie – Sistahs
Blink-182 – Enema Of The State
Hitsujibungaku – 12 hugs (like butterflies)
The Damned – The Black Album
Sztywny Pal Azji – Europa i Azja
Killing Joke – What's This For...!
The Associates – The Affectionate Punch
Adam and the Ants – Dirk Wears White Sox
FFS – FFS
Mattiel – Satis Factory
Mattiel – Mattiel
Mattiel – Georgia Gothic
Billie Eilish – Hit Me Hard And Soft
The Fleshtones – Roman Gods
The Damned – Strawberries
The Fleshtones – Wheel of Talent
The Fleshtones – It’s Getting Late (…and More Songs About Werewolves)
Suicide – Suicide
Viagra Boys – Welfare Jazz
Fugazi – 13 Songs 
Can – Monster Movie
The Three Johns – Atom Drum Bop
Elastica – Elastica
The Stranglers – In The Night
Moin - You Never End
Girl Ultra - blush

That's exactly 179 albums which is 37 more than I listened to last year which I'm pleased with. Part of this was having an occasional role at work which meant I could listen to albums through headphones whilst working, which on occasion meant listening to five or six full-length albums per day; and which also led to a wider breadth of material as I was more eclectic in my choices. For the purposes of my favourites, as I've done with my movie list, I will discount anything previously listened to. And unlike movies and books (which - even with favourites - I rarely read/see more than a handful of occasions in a lifetime), music is an entirely different kettle of fish and predominantly most of these will be re-listens. I haven't done a count in previous years, but I note approximately 35% of these records were new to me which isn't too bad a percentage I feel.

Whilst I consider myself to have an eclectic taste, meaning I rarely play records I actively dislike, there were two LPs this year which were an absolute struggle to finish. I greatly enjoy the work of Charlie Megira, but picking up the reissue of "Charlie Megira & The Hefker Girl" I found this to be muddied sub-Joy Division, joyless, ennui. Likewise, having enjoyed some Fontaines D.C. I couldn't play even half of "Romance" which was like watching a baseball player missing a pitched ball on eternal repeat.

Revisits this year included old favourites such as Blonde Redhead, The Stranglers, Buzzcocks and The Fall. And as I attended 25 gigs this year quite a few of the re-listens revolved around preparing for those: so large numbers of Goat Girl, The Damned, Amyl and the Sniffers, and Mattiel have affected these figures. I've also bought quite a bit of vinyl, however haven't bought any extra time with which to play it, and so predominantly these records were streamed. My favourite piece of vinyl this year, however, was the long-awaited reissue of one of my favourite Residents' albums, "Demons Dance Alone". A response to the 2001 twin tower attacks, it's such a joyful, inventive album, full of warmth and humour, and it's first release on vinyl renders it superb.

Special mentions also to the following: "I Love You" by the well-named Teen Jesus And The Jean Teasers, a girl guitar band in the mould of Panic Shack (whose "Baby Shack" EP I also liked this year); Sheheazaad's "Qasr", a sonic delight; Sabina Sciubba's oftentimes stripped back "Force Majeure"; possibly my favourite Sonic Youth record, "NYC Ghosts & Flowers" and my favourite Iggy Pop record, "Avenue B"; Baxter Dury's trippy introspective "I Thought I Was Better Than You" (which very nearly made my top three this year); the madcap Otoboke Beaver (both albums "Super Champon" and "Itekoma Hits"); Nina Hagen's glorious "NunSexMonkRock"; Polish favourite's Sztywny Pal Azji with their classic "Europa i Azja" album; and Throwing Muses' "Sun Racket" which is an absolute grower.

I also dug deeply into Butthole Surfers this year. Having always been fascinated by the band through their sublime cover of Donovan's "Hurdy Gurdy Man" I'd never listened to any of their other work before, but this year I took in "Locust Abortion Technician", "Rembrandt Pussyhorse", "Hairway To Steven", "Electriclarryland", and - my favourite, although not the band's - "Piouhgd." That latter album almost made my top three this year and was certainly one of my most played records.

Onto 2024 releases. I thought there were some great albums this year, most especially Kacey Musgrave's quietly folk-pop "Deeper Well"; Vampire Weekend's "Only God Was Above Us" (a return to form after 2019's much less interesting "Father Of The Bride"); Goat Girl's quirky "Below The Waste"; Habibi's upbeat "Dreamachine"; Melt-Banana's storming "3+5"; perennial favourite's Maximo Park's "Stream of Life" (whilst not as great as the superb "Nature Always Wins", it still knocks the spots of most guitar pop); Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds' "Wild God" (although it grows and then it wilts, for me); Sum 41's "Heaven :x: Hell" (two LPs: one acknowledging the band's pop punk past and the second their more nu-metal side); The Resident's mini-LP "Dookietown"; Amyl & The Sniffers storming "Cartoon Darkness" (again, almost in my top three. Some blistering songs here, especially the Blondie-esque "Bailing On Me" which really cuts me deep, and "Jerkin'" which is the perfect song to play loud on the drive into work); and finally "Songs Of A Lost World" by The Cure which has some wonderful melodic moments even if they don't touch me quite where I want to be touched.

Ultimately, though, whilst a couple of records above could have made this final selection, here are my top three records (surprisingly all 2024 releases, and also surprisingly, all acts which I saw live this year) played this year (in reverse order):


"Born Horses" (2024) - Mercury Rev




When the title track "Patterns" was released, I found it almost naïve in it's lyricism, as though Jonathan Donahue had been brained with a mallet and was sitting cross-legged on grass watching the stars spinning around his head, however this song wasn't just a quirky one-off, but a specific precursor for the record that followed. There's no doubt that "Born Horses" is an odd beast - jazzy, mostly spoken rather than sung - yet after three or four listens (and then more) I found it completely absorbing, captivating and majestic. From being initially unsure I now consider it a triumph. In terms of it's depth, it eased Amyl & The Sniffers out of third place this year.


"The Tortured Poets Department" (2024) - Taylor Swift





Make no mistake, this is a damn fine record. After the hot mess that I found it's predecessor, "Midnights", to be, Taylor ramps up the songwriting and produces a work of art. There's a lot to unpack here. Tonally it's quite similar throughout with these songs that feel like chapters in a novel of a relationship breakdown. Swift is a true artist, turning grief into storytelling, writing her way out, putting her experiences into her music. It's a strong record, thematically sound, which sits somewhere between "Folklore" and "Evermore". And the production and clarity of her vocal is spot on. Exceeding my expectations, it's a confident record about a fragile subject matter, and it's great to hear her grow. With this record, Taylor edged out Butthole Surfers from my top three this year.

And the winner is...

"Filthy Underneath" (2024) - Nadine Shah




This is a truly great album from a superb singer and wholly inventive artist. A record which hangs together perfectly, from it's abrasive openings to the trio of introspective final set of songs, held together with sharp, insightful lyricism, with the bottom line being Shah's distinctive, honestly beautiful voice. Favourite song, "Greatest Dancer", absolutely glides with a kind of sublime power. On first hearing, I had to stop what I was doing just to focus on it. Seeing Shah twice in concert this year (with the latter show being my favourite live performance of the year) perfectly complemented this excellent record, and without a doubt it's the best thing I've listened to in 2024.

So that's it, my summary of what I read, watched and listened to this year! Drop back in next year, but as has become usual I'll end with a song that captivated me during 2024 and is sufficiently quirky to deserve the final note to send off this long post. Not safe for work, here's the irrepressibly singalong song that is "Jerkin'" by Amyl & The Sniffers. Sheer joy!




Saturday, 21 December 2024

My Writing Year 2024

As has become annual I thought I'd write a quick blog post as to my literary achievements during 2024.

Starting with short fiction, I wrote nine short stories: "Hello, Algeria!", "Hiroshima Was Another Word For Love Then", "Mont Blanc", "La Folie de l’Uchronie", "Cinema Belongs To Me", "Exposé", "Queen Of The Margins", "Weather Reports" and "Rendez-vous à la Cinémathèque Française". This is about average for me. I've also written an article: "Fear And Loathing In The Arctic". All this amounts to around 31,400 words. All of those short stories, together with some I wrote last year, make up a collection to be titled "New Vagaries" for which I am currently seeking a publisher. I didn't write any long form fiction this year.

I sold four short stores this year. Two originals: "Betaville" to the anthology Unauthorised Departures, and "Water In The Wrong Light" to Roads Less Travelled magazine #1. I've also sold two reprints: "The Enfilade" which originally appeared in Black Static, to The Best Horror Of The Year #16, and "So Close To Home" in Best of British Science Fiction 2023. The abovementioned article has also been accepted for publication in a book I'm not yet authorised to name.

The following four stories were published this year (and in fact, everything I sold this year was published this year) so that's: "Betaville" in Unauthorised Departures edited by Rick McGrath, "Water In The Wrong Light" in Roads Less Travelled edited by Trevor Denyer, "The Enfilade" in The Best Horror Of The Year #16 edited by Ellen Datlow, and "So Close To Home" in Best of British Science Fiction 2023, edited by Donna Bond.

In book news, my eleventh collection of short fiction, "Commercial Book", was published by The Eyeball Museum, the imprint of Psychofon Records. This collection features forty short stories each of exactly 1000 words in length, based on the forty songs each of exactly one minute in length on The Residents' 1980 "Commercial Album". Published in both a collectible edition (including special packaging, a CD, and a stick of chewing gum!) and a regular paperback, the collectible sold out in minutes. There might be a couple of paperbacks still available here.

This year also saw me sell four books for (hopeful) publication in 2025. These are "Enfilades", a mini-retrospective of six of my previously published stories from Raphus Press (order here); "Body and Soul", an SF novel to be published by Elsewhen Press (no order details yet); the non-fiction book, "Union City", about the 1980 film of the same name, which will appear from the Electric Dreamhouse imprint of PS Publishing; and "Somnambulant Hearts", my thirteenth collection of short stories which has been picked up by a publisher whom I am not yet at liberty to name. As per last year, I've also been co-editing a free Arts magazine for Norwich with Thomas Jarvis called Tangerine, in my spare time.

Whilst Head Shot Press - my crime publishing company - didn't publish anything last year and is on hold at the moment, three stories from last year's anthology, "Bang!", edited by myself,  were longlisted for the CWA Short Story Dagger award and two of those went on to make the shortlist. A fantastic achievement for the writers concerned (Andrew Humphrey, Benedict J Jones and Mia Dalia).

Like last year, I currently have no short stories awaiting publication and am completely up to date. As usual, there are a few longer projects that are under consideration by various agents/publishers.

So that's it for 2024. I don't have much in mind for next year so maybe it will be a fallow period for me. Who knows? Sometimes even I need a break!

Tuesday, 2 July 2024

Water In The Wrong Light

My short story titled "Water In The Wrong Light" has just been published in the first issue of  Roads Less Travelled magazine, edited by Trevor Denyer through Midnight Street Press, and as usual I'm blogging a few words discussing how the story came to be written. There may be spoilers within.

I usually start with a title and whilst I can't remember where this title came from that was certainly the case here. I coupled this with something I took from my regular morning cycle ride, where a strip of stagnant water - which seems to be the dead end of a river - runs along the side of the cycle path. It's overhung with trees and there's usually a polythene bag somewhere in the water and if I were ever to discover a dead body I'm convinced that it would be here. This got me thinking that not only would it be a likely spot to discover a body, but also an ideal setting to place one. I decided to create a character who would fantasise about this scenario, and then consider how this might play out, and then - of course - wonder if such a body might be his own, and how that second scenario might unravel. Essentially, that's the impetus for the story. My narrator isn't an altogether pleasant character - far from it - which I think makes the piece more interesting as to where a reader's sympathies might lie. I'm very pleased with how it worked out.



Here's an extract: 

Each time Shimizu cycled under the railway bridge his eyes were drawn to the shaded patch of water to his left, a stagnant area where his expectation was always to see a body. The early morning sunlight would kaleidoscope light through variegated leaf cover, speckling his vision, the contrast between the route ahead and adjacent vegetation almost two different worlds, just as the track he was on was once a former railway line even as trains passed overhead. This secluded area would be a place that he would dump a body, should he ever murder anyone, that much he knew. It wasn’t so isolated that it might never be discovered, yet neither would it be obvious. The idea that a body might lie in such a liminal space resonated with him. There was a mirror to be had with his take on existence.


Regular readers of this blog will know I usually listen to music through headphones whilst writing, and this entire story was written to Blonde Redhead's album "Barragán" (initially the whole album, but then only the title song on continuous repeat).


To reiterate, "Water In The Wrong Light" is published by Midnight Street Press, and in addition to myself features stories from Michael FitzMichael, Ian Li, Frances Koziar, Ralph Robert Moore, Margaret Eve, Sunmisola Odusola, Charlotte H Lee, Tim Lees, James Van Pelt, Vaughan Stanger, K MacMichael, and Joe R Lansdale together with a number of interviews and articles. Buy it here

Tuesday, 18 June 2024

Best of British Science Fiction 2023

My short story titled "So Close To Home", originally published in Languages of Water, an anthology edited by Eugen Bacon, has been reprinted in Best of British Science Fiction 2023 edited by Donna Scott and published by NewCon Press.


I've reprised my original blog post about the writing of that story below.

The anthology, "Languages of Water", came into being via Eugen's short story, "When The Water Stops", which was first published in the Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction. "Languages of Water" - Eugen blogs - is a cross-lingual hybrid birthed from the Writers Immersion and Cultural Exchange (WrICE). At the heart of WrICE is a simple idea: to give writers of different backgrounds a chance to step outside familiar writing practices and contexts and connect deeply with writers from different cultures and across generations in an immersive residency. The respectful and generative space for reflection, conversation, creative sharing and surprise that WrICE offers affords writers a muse - a precious opportunity to explore possibilities outside comfort zones and borrow something new into own creative practice. It sparks connections and grows a cohesive community of writers that spans boundaries.

"When The Water Stops" becomes a source story in "Languages of Water" where it appears in multiple translations and interpretations. Eugen asked me to contribute to the project, and "So Close To Home" is therefore inspired by that story.


Envisaging a world where water is in short supply led me to consider how the impact of aridity might affect countries that would normally have no fear of drought, namely the UK and those in the Northern Hemisphere. How they might repurpose water from elsewhere, or add other liquids to it in order to bulk it out. How they would ration it. The story is split into two sections, centered around a child - Joel - who accompanies his father on the morning trek to a repurposed filling station in the first section, and in the second section is older and in a gang that seeks to intercept one of the water trucks. The title - of course (perhaps) - is appropriated from the Raymond Carver short story, "So Much Water So Close To Home."




Here's a bit of it:

Joel didn’t understand the ins and the outs, the hand-me-down jokes, but when he suggested the plan, they listened. The trucks made pre-determined journeys, not dissimilar to the passage of water down a mountainside in the golden days. From the source they spread, fanned along tributaries, turned where the land grooved. In Joel’s city they arrived in the early hours, twin orbs lighting darkness. In amongst the metalwork at the rear of the garage Joel found the tyre iron he had hidden three days ago. Gripping it in his right hand he left to join the others.

Best of British Science Fiction is edited by Donna Scott and published by NewCon Press. It can be bought here. In addition to my story, there are reprints from Alastair Reynolds, Tim Lees, Adrian Tchaikovsky, Ana Sun, Stephen Baxter, Angus McIntyre, Lavie Tidhar, Chris Beckett, L.P. Melling, David Cleden, Fiona Moore, Jaine Fenn, E.B. Siu, Rhiannon Grist, Robert Bagnall, Teika Marija Smits, Tim Major, Ian Watson, and Felix Rose Kawitzky.

Sunday, 28 April 2024

Commercial Book / Perfect Love

As many of you will be aware, my short story collection, "Commercial Book", was recently published by The Eyeball Museum via Psychofon Records. The collection features 40 short stories of exactly 1000 words in length, and these stories are based on the 40 songs of exactly one minute in length that featured on "Commercial Album", released by The Residents in 1980. "Commercial Book" is fully endorsed by the band.


I'm aware that some of my readers will be unfamiliar with The Residents, and fans of the band will also be unfamiliar with my writing. As the book can be enjoyed without any prior knowledge of the music, I've decided to post some of the stories here in full, so readers can get an indication of what the collection is like. My first posting was Margaret Freeman. This second story is "Perfect Love". A link to the song concludes this post.


Perfect Love


A hit is a necessity to the making of a miss.

Cate was on the rebound when she came to Pendour Cove. In other circumstances the area would be idyllic. The curvature of sunken green land sucked down into a basin peppered with black rock and curated by light refracting through a blue topaz sea. The only manmade structure the rentable shack at the top of the cliff, together with the well-worn path bearing tracks of the device containing the giant Mason jar which could be winched from the water and – through double swing doors – into the shack itself.

She arrived mid-afternoon on a late summer’s day. The sun creating a hard glaze on the veneer of the sea so that it appeared the surface might be picked up in one piece, like the caramelized sugar atop a crème brûlée. Cate sighed, the exhale carrying suggestive fragments of a broken heart. In her mind’s eye, her former lover, Giallo, the circus clown, approached her as he had on their first date, a bright yellow flower in his lapel. As she walked down the compacted trail to the beach a stiff breeze whisked a mist of salt spray onto her skin. She licked her lips. Cate preferred this taste to that of tap water. She reached the bottom and faced the sea. Her shoes made impressions in the soft, wet, sand.

That evening – after winching the Mason jar outside the double doors - she burned a candle for Giallo, the nicitating flame illuminating then eclipsing the furniture within the room. Despite the extortionate price, the interior of the cabin was meagre: a table, a chair, a fridge, a stove, a sink, a toilet, a bath, a bed. Each object functional, unromantic. Cate allowed a moment of reflection, her visage static as her shadow danced. Was there such a thing as perfect love? She wet her fingers and extinguished the flame, plunging her into a darkness from which a new light might emerge.

She woke early the next morning. Daylight straining against the double doors, delineating two rectangular patterns around the edges as though the open leaves of a gilded book, with the wider gap between them suggesting a gold-finished spine. Cate took hold of her hair and held it in the light, before making a three-inch cut. Moving to the stove she lit the gas low, burning the split ends just enough so that they didn’t disintegrate. An instantly identifiable, but indescribable odour filled the shack. She wrapped yesterday’s underwear around the hair and placed it in her pocket. Then she opened the double doors inwards and strode into the view bowed by the jar’s curve.

Operating the winch, she kept a keen eye on the jar as it jiggered on its little wooden trolley down to the beach. Once it reached the flattened surface she caught up with it. Taking the fetish from her pocket she stood on tiptoes then placed it inside. A second winch on a plinth half-buried in sand allowed her to ease the Mason jar into the sea. She counted to twenty-five once it was fully submerged. An optimum distance for fishing.

Cate spent the day squeezing sand between her toes, precariously climbing those black rocks, watching the movement of tiny red crabs which seemed to multiply before her eyes, and spotting the raised burrows of razorfish which fed by straining organic matter through their thin bodies.

Come evening, Cate returned to the shack. She prepared a simple meal of sandwiches and salad which she ate voraciously, her eyes fixed on the scene beyond the double doors. At 8pm, as the sun began its descent, she operated the winch, the electric mechanism drawing the Mason jar out of the sea and up the steep incline to the shack.

Despite her curiosity Cate averted her gaze until she had closed the double doors and was no longer alone.

The creature within the jar was more fish than man, but Cate’s response was dictated by the potency of the fetish. Gills fluctuated in their opening and closing either side of a ribbed neck; opaque eyes unblinking; webbed hands pressed flat against the interior glass; the remaining body suspended within the water, just as a bird might hover in flight.

Love swelled within Cate’s breast. A rush of dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin, phenylethylamine. She ran fingertips over the glass, which the creature emulated. Unselfconsciously, Cate removed her clothing, pressed her body against the jar, wrapped her arms either side. Angling her head, she directed her lips to the formerly liquid sand, and the creature reciprocated. Pure joy sparkled through her.

Over the remaining days the creature mirrored more of her actions. When she sat at the table, it adopted a crouch. When she slept, it curled. When she smiled and laughed the creature responded in kind, bubbles rising to break the water’s surface. When she ate, she threw scraps into the water. When she toileted, it did too.

Should the creature have exhibited any attributes of its own Cate was aware the spell would be broken. Perfect love can only exist without a partner’s intervention. She projected her desires upon the creature and they were mirrored. Should it initiate an action, this would risk displeasure. She knew the longer they were together, the greater this likelihood would become. Love was a one-way ticket. To retain it, she had to mythologise it.

The weather took a downturn on her final day. Clouds portended rain. She pushed back the double doors against a high wind. The metal latch rattled to hold them open. As she kissed the glass one final time, her insides ballooning in an amalgam of emotions, she saw hesitation in the creature’s expression, a panic of goodbyes.

The winch broke halfway in the descent, the cable whipping against the Mason jar as it tumbled down the cliff side, the glass smashing against the black rocks.

Cate gasped, polarised.

Those tiny crabs began their work; bodies the colour of hearts.



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"Commercial Book" was available in a special limited edition version with CD and Perfect Love chewing gum, however this has sold out. The regular paperback is still available HERE although copies are also limited.

And here is the song, my inspiration (only the song, my story has nothing to do with the representation in this video):